My first time being in the delivery room, I keep on telling myself, “I can do this, I can do this! Just breathe in and breathe out” I keep on fighting this pain that is hitting me every minute. But, the doctor advised me, “Not Yet”. I went back to my room, as I wait there doing random of things just to ease the pain I was feeling, someone knock into the door, it was my Mom, what a relief. The second time I went back to the delivery room, nurses can still ask me questions and I can still answer, then this time I get the same advise from my doctor. Still I went back to my room, eventhough my whole body don’t want to, while I was on my room, I was praying asking for more strenght to bare the pain, I don’t want to be touched because a little touch can send a pain all over my body. The third time I went to the delivery room, 4cm, this can’t be, my body is shaking, I think I will collapse in no time, but again, I was advised to go back to my room, while I was on my room, I think I’m going to die, but No, I know someone inside me is fighting, Do Not Give Up! Then my doctor went into my room, it was unusual, my cm was not increasing but the pain keeps on repeating, she checked the heartbeat of my little angel, there goes the pain and my baby’s heartbeat is no good from 150 to 120 to 70 and 50. I was brought to the delivery room again, this time, they focused to my baby’s heartbeat, it’s no good. Cord Coil! Ceasarean Section announced! Ah, at that time, I felt relief. I was brought to the operating room, Oh c’mon, this is it! Just in a while I’ll see you my little angel.
An hour later, a baby boy in blue everything was shown to me, I kissed Him and he was brought by the nurse to the NewBorn Intensive Care Unit.
This all happened to me on the Valentines Day of the Year 2015! I’m only 22, and I’m proud of it! Our Baby is turning 3months in 2weeks!
my baby’s picture minutes after operation!